I want it to be over....

I want peace..... and boy do I need it....

I have many wonderful things going for me right now... however I need peace in my life, things have been way to turbulant and I dont know how much longer my soule can tolerate it. This is not a warning nor a notice for those that are reading this but more a fact of reality for my self. I just want peace in my life, this no warning but just simply a statement - a statement of intent for a better life rather than drastic measures.

I'm tired of this stagent life style and am yet forced to remain in it not only from my own actions but from my current circumstances. I must adimt its amazing how clear my thoughts can be in moments of stuggel.

Life is full of moments: moments of love, of joy, of hope, of tears, of fears, and of pain - they may be sad but they are in the end optimistic and thus where life or rather God himself is taking me is unknown. I can only hope he is takeing me to a better place which is what I truly long for.

For those of you who may read this and question my sanity or rather my sanity should in fact be re-assured in that I in my truly depths of pain can hope that life will be better through the very act of learning from the pain and utilizing it for future exepreinces or joy.

Wow, what profound statement.... may I reinterate that I dont want a reaction from you the reader mearly a understanding.... for life.... in that experince of life of the movement from birth to death we are all united.....

Mabey at this point I should just shut up.... but sometimes the most profound moments of life come from the most siplistic ones....

I cant tell you that I hope for peace, understading, and for the power to truly help others - for then I will truly be living life to its fullest....

I ask then that you pray for me.... that you too hope along with me that I may achive this.... this truly goal of life....

I dont know what else to say other than that only time will tell what happens to me in this journy called life.... I am optimistic... yet honistly scared as to what lies ahead....

God will let faith prevail and I tuly do trust in that...... that absoulteness known as FAITH.....

As us mehtodists say....

May God be with you... and also with you....

"dont worry with me I am doing better than ever"

like I said I will inform you on every detail of my lilfe.....
untill next time....

Seth